i feel problematic today

I want to change my topic for our papers.
I just lost interest and that is not so good. :(

also, boys blow! What i have learned from feelings of wanting companionship is that it is a waste of time that i don't have. And that no one gets what/who they want... accept for the ass holes who always get their way.

I want to join the Peace Corps. But, can not really do that when I am in school... and by the time i get out of school i will be like 27 or 28... and prolly want pursue being in the Peace Corps if i wait.

i am all sorts of fucked up.

I miss my family. I really miss my mom. :( we hardly talk anymore and there is so much to tell her but every time we talk i just want her to feel like she can talk to me and tell me how her life is (best run on sentence ever). :(

My mind is everywhere where it should not be... and i just want to know what to do with everything. Everyone says that things will fall into place... but you have to let them fall first... and i haven't done that yet.

I feel bitter and heartless anymore. it sucks.
I am always sitting in the...